From the Heart of BMa

This Blog is intended for me, BMa, to write from my heart to my two beautiful Grandchildren. They have filled my life with joy and this Blog is to let them know how very much they mean to me. I will also share my inner love for my Daughter, my Mom, my brothers and their familes.

Monday, March 19, 2007

Like long walks along the beach, blah blah blah

Dating at any age is very difficult. At 51, I have tried dating several times. During my dating adventures, I have been lucky enough to find some men that fall within the realm of what I am looking for and had some short term meaningful relationships. But lets face it, trying to find somone via date adds is very very difficult. Everyone wants to travel, wants romance and passion, likes the mountains and the beach, cuddling on the couch, sipping wine, yada yada yada. So what do you do or say to make yourself more interesting than the other 2 million adds out there that will at least spark an interest, with the right people? I do not know the answer. Maybe being direct is better. I think I am going to change my profile, yet again, to be more direct, a little more funny and state the obvious. I am looking for someone who can accept me for who I am and is willing to participate in my life and I will do the same in return. So why is that so difficult? Lot's of people (men and women) lie, yes can you believe it???, lie in their profiles. So you never, and I mean never, know what you are going to get when you finally decide to date. So here I go again on another dating adventure. This time I thought it would be fun to share my date experiences onmy blog and ask for advise as I go along. It couldn't hurt, right? Wish me luck - I am onmy way

Saturday, March 17, 2007

Starting Over

Well, I haven't posted to my blog since July 2006!!! Nor, have I taken the time to read other blogs, especially my daughters. I caught up today on some of it and decided I need to post another article do express myself. This is of course, from the heart of B'Ma!!

So, why haven't I done anything since July? I got very very busy. First of all I met a wonderful man named Allen. We started dating in August and spent lots of time together. We were getting along just wonderful. Work then got very very busy. I had a business trip scheduled in Oct/Nov that took me away for 5 weeks. The great thing about this trip, other than being in several exoctic places, was that Allen joined me in Bangkok. We had such a great time. I was feeling like a princess for the first time in my life. Wasn't love yet, but having a really good time - enjoying the good life. At 51 it is very hard to find someone special that can share in your most intimate moments and also share in your life's dreams. Then the holidays were upon us. Thanksgiving was very nice. I spent Thanksgiving at Allen's. We cooked dinner together and his family came over including his ex wife and her boyfriend. It was a little weird, but we all got along. I had another business trip in December that took me away for another week, and then spent another week in NH for my beautiful Lexi's firsth birthday. Picked up my Mom who lives in RI and then flew her to VA for Christmas and New Years. OK, you ask, so when did I have time to be with Allen during all of this. Good point - not that much. Things between us started to wain at Christmas time. Allen felt like I was squezzing him into my life. I told him I was including him in my life and wanted him to be a part of it. January came around and Iwent on two more businees trips that took me into February. Needless to say, when I returned, it was over between Allen and I. Heart broken? No. Sad? Yes. It is not fun to be lonely. It is very difficult to find someone who can fit within your lifestyle especially when you are so established. Don't get me wrong, it is not that I am not willing to change some of my life styles, but I won't not at the expense of job/career and my family. So, here I am again scanning eharmony, match.com and other single web sites wondering if there is someone out there that can put up with me and share my life. Never give up I say!!! Stay tuned for more postings!! I am back - ahhh - I have time now. :-)